He knows it's hard to ask Wei Ying to be patient - apparently he's already spoken to the other Lan Wangji, who may have given his blessings but honestly Lan Wangji is skeptical that what he says is what he can accept in his heart. Though in knowing how he feels for Wei Ying, how the other one probably feels, perhaps the other one has also come to the conclusion that he loves both Wei Ying as well.
How is this not less confusing than it had been at the start?
"I told you, I will speak to him," he says, more firmly. But Lan Wangji doesn't know what's in his heart, and rushing that would be the worst thing he could do. Does he want to accept this Wei Ying's love and affections? Yes, a thousand times yes; it physically pains him to keep him at a distance. He would rather carve more scars on his back. But he doesn't want any of it at the cost of scaring away the other Wei Ying. It's why he didn't say anything, even after he'd come back to life, even after getting a second chance. He would die slowly to keep this charade, but he would die quickly to lose Wei Ying's trust and friendship.
He takes Wei Ying's hand, and holds it in his. "Please let me take some time."
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How is this not less confusing than it had been at the start?
"I told you, I will speak to him," he says, more firmly. But Lan Wangji doesn't know what's in his heart, and rushing that would be the worst thing he could do. Does he want to accept this Wei Ying's love and affections? Yes, a thousand times yes; it physically pains him to keep him at a distance. He would rather carve more scars on his back. But he doesn't want any of it at the cost of scaring away the other Wei Ying. It's why he didn't say anything, even after he'd come back to life, even after getting a second chance. He would die slowly to keep this charade, but he would die quickly to lose Wei Ying's trust and friendship.
He takes Wei Ying's hand, and holds it in his. "Please let me take some time."