He listens to him, every single word, as he felt the pain and anger left his body. The violence of his anger toward himself left him as he felt calmer hearing his words and the sincere honesty behind them somewhat. True, he has been unhappy, and no matter what, he stayed because he promised if they leave this world, they will leave together. They will finish every chapter and climb over every obstacle that the hotel throws at them, even if their weakness and vulnerability become exploited and exposed.
He slowly turns around to look at him, and rather not facing the tree, which he broke pass the thick layer of bark and punched it into splinters. "...I can't take him home with me. He belongs to the other one. He is not mine, even if I give a small part of my life to him, so he has something happy to cherished, it's not going to be enough. You're the one who is mine and the one I vowed and promise to take home. Of course, you deserved happiness. The hotel has no right to take your life. The hotel has no right to take you away from me. You already died for your sins, you don't need to die for something you didn't do. You did nothing wrong."
He takes a deep sigh, composing himself. "No. The reason I kissed him when you came back because Wei Ying is unhappy and we are both selfish. When you're gone, there is no replacement of you. And I'm someone who isn't capable of making you both happy because I don't understand why you love me. Kisses, hugs, gifts, what are they worth? Absolutely nothing. Wei Ying, you're my soulmate. I will not move on. It's not that simple. Because I have chosen to. You do make me happy. I missed you terribly when you were gone. And despite that, you feel you don't deserve anything despite everything that you and I did..."
He walks over because he senses his fear. That he will walk away because of his imperfections, that he is inadequate, that he is easily replaced. "I still love you and choose you, in your two lifetimes, and the many more to come. I choose you and nobody else. Because despite everything, you're....you're just right and I'm sorry."
Feeling calmer, "I'm just angry that my love isn't enough and I'll lose you again. What I must do to keep you? Would you be happier with the other if we let each other go or switch places? These are the doubts in my mind everyday."
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He slowly turns around to look at him, and rather not facing the tree, which he broke pass the thick layer of bark and punched it into splinters. "...I can't take him home with me. He belongs to the other one. He is not mine, even if I give a small part of my life to him, so he has something happy to cherished, it's not going to be enough. You're the one who is mine and the one I vowed and promise to take home. Of course, you deserved happiness. The hotel has no right to take your life. The hotel has no right to take you away from me. You already died for your sins, you don't need to die for something you didn't do. You did nothing wrong."
He takes a deep sigh, composing himself. "No. The reason I kissed him when you came back because Wei Ying is unhappy and we are both selfish. When you're gone, there is no replacement of you. And I'm someone who isn't capable of making you both happy because I don't understand why you love me. Kisses, hugs, gifts, what are they worth? Absolutely nothing. Wei Ying, you're my soulmate. I will not move on. It's not that simple. Because I have chosen to. You do make me happy. I missed you terribly when you were gone. And despite that, you feel you don't deserve anything despite everything that you and I did..."
He walks over because he senses his fear. That he will walk away because of his imperfections, that he is inadequate, that he is easily replaced. "I still love you and choose you, in your two lifetimes, and the many more to come. I choose you and nobody else. Because despite everything, you're....you're just right and I'm sorry."
Feeling calmer, "I'm just angry that my love isn't enough and I'll lose you again. What I must do to keep you? Would you be happier with the other if we let each other go or switch places? These are the doubts in my mind everyday."