Huaisang contemplates pouring into a glass as well but instead, he just takes hold of the jar and takes a drink before he even thinks about saying anything. He lowers it, turning it in his hand and this is more difficult than he expected.

"It started after you died," Huaisang says carefully, closing his eyes. "There had been a disturbance in our ancestral tombs. Da ge... insisted that I go with them despite all my objections. I was upset about it and he was more unstable than ever." He takes another drink then.

"I tried to insist that since I was no good at martial arts that I should stay behind and take care of the family but he couldn't be moved. I thought he was punishing me, I felt like I was the victim of his rage," How stupid he had been back then. "Meng Yao gave me a flute to help soothe da ge's anger if it was necessary."

And Huaisang continues explaining that they had gone he leaves out some of the parts that aren't really relevant, his time spent saving Mingjue and them making some things right between them. That's too painful and personal to recount to someone who seems to have some suspicion of him. Who's asking this of him for their own reasons. Instead, he explains what happened with the saber's spirit in the tomb. That Mingjue had started losing control and turned against Zonghui. So, Huaisang had started to play the melody that Meng Yao had taught him, taught to Meng Yao by Lan Xichen only it wasn't what Huaisang had thought it was. Instead of calming Mingjue, he had killed Zonghui, nearly killed Huaisang before he found himself. By the time Mingjue had vanished, Huaisang had known without a doubt but he only started realizing Meng Yao's true nature that night in the tomb.

"Everything I did was for da ge."