He ducks his head down even further, hiding his expression behind those long bangs. Lan Wangji says he is perfect and done nothing wrong but all of that seems farthest from the truth. It feels like he has done nothing right and perhaps he never will and they will always be caught in these situations. He can't help how he feels towards the other Lan Wangji but that doesn't mean he wants to switch. He knows that his place is beside this Lan Wangji and has never doubted that for a moment.
"Have I done something to make you think those things? Has there ever been a night when I didn't come home to you and made you doubt my loyalty? Have I ever said something to cause you to to feel like I did more with hm?"
His voice is weak, tired from the strain of all these emotions and mentally fragile. Perhaps they needed this...perhaps before they can possibly get married these doubts and truths must be voiced. Because by entering into the marriage with so much weight on their hearts and shoulders would only cause they pain in the long run. But that doesn't make it any easier to deal with now, even knowing that they need to do this.
"Is the only reason you stay with me because I am the one from your world? Does he make you happier?"
These weren't thoughts he had ever had until this moment, but now the fear grips him like a vice. Does Lan Wangji really want to take his soul twin back with him instead? Perhaps after all this time the one Lan Wangji really loves is his soul twin. Perhaps he is the one that is truly in both their hearts and this Wei Wuxian is the one on the outside.
He feels his legs grow weak from the mere thought of that and his knees buckle. He plops down on the ground as if his legs just can't support his weight any longer.
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"Have I done something to make you think those things? Has there ever been a night when I didn't come home to you and made you doubt my loyalty? Have I ever said something to cause you to to feel like I did more with hm?"
His voice is weak, tired from the strain of all these emotions and mentally fragile. Perhaps they needed this...perhaps before they can possibly get married these doubts and truths must be voiced. Because by entering into the marriage with so much weight on their hearts and shoulders would only cause they pain in the long run. But that doesn't make it any easier to deal with now, even knowing that they need to do this.
"Is the only reason you stay with me because I am the one from your world? Does he make you happier?"
These weren't thoughts he had ever had until this moment, but now the fear grips him like a vice. Does Lan Wangji really want to take his soul twin back with him instead? Perhaps after all this time the one Lan Wangji really loves is his soul twin. Perhaps he is the one that is truly in both their hearts and this Wei Wuxian is the one on the outside.
He feels his legs grow weak from the mere thought of that and his knees buckle. He plops down on the ground as if his legs just can't support his weight any longer.