He manages a slightly deeper breath once he's settled, though try as he might, the tears don't stop, and it's all he can do to bury his face in his knees, arms wrapped tightly around them. It's childish, so childish, but he can't shake the heavy feeling, can't stop seeing the faces of those he cared for most, be reminded of how he hurt them, how it's your fault, your fault, your fault...
It takes a while, a dozen or so minutes as he just stays like that, trying to focus on steadying his breath, calming his nerves, and lets go of how little sense it all makes. Oddly enough, as if timed somehow, the heavy feeling passes, like daylight breaking through storm clouds, burning away the shadows.
He doesn't lift his head once he's finished crying, but his shoulders have stopped shaking. Perhaps this is penance for faking his tears so many times at Cloud Recesses. He lets out a sigh, even his thick face is smarting after falling to pieces in front of this man, and he can feel all the questions that'd been on the tip of his tongue begin to return.
"I'm done... I think. Can we... start over and pretend that didn't happen?"
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It takes a while, a dozen or so minutes as he just stays like that, trying to focus on steadying his breath, calming his nerves, and lets go of how little sense it all makes. Oddly enough, as if timed somehow, the heavy feeling passes, like daylight breaking through storm clouds, burning away the shadows.
He doesn't lift his head once he's finished crying, but his shoulders have stopped shaking. Perhaps this is penance for faking his tears so many times at Cloud Recesses. He lets out a sigh, even his thick face is smarting after falling to pieces in front of this man, and he can feel all the questions that'd been on the tip of his tongue begin to return.
"I'm done... I think. Can we... start over and pretend that didn't happen?"